Monday, January 16, 2006

Parting IS such sweet sorrow! I handed my 14 yr old boy the camera, and THIS is what I found on it tonight. I didn't know he took it. We Miss You Race! So much.

Whenever we see Race off for a trip, I say the same thing:

"Be careful. Come home. Don't worry about us, we're fine. We love you. I love you.........Come home."

I say the exact same thing every time. And I don't cry. No one wants to see crying, weepy, weakness, when you are about to leave. And I don't EVER want him to worry about us. THINK about us, sure. But not WORRY. His mind needs to be on his work. It HAS to be on his work. So, I don't want him to worry. And when I think about being a child, it would unnerve me to see my mother break down, so I don't do it. I dry tears, I don't cry them.....at least not on departures. Race and the kids and I all know how we feel, so in the words of my dad, "I dunno what good cryin's gonna do about it."

But, I love the picture. It was a nice surprise. Thanks, Austin.

2 comments:

J-Lynn said...

On a much lesser scale I feel the same way. Lesser because although there are risks to what my DH does I feel like I couldn't compare it to what yours does at all. But, I know the feeling. The first time Geo became a trucker (about 5 years ago) I was newly pregnant with Craig. I was 22 and selfish and still trying to figure life out. (not that I'm not now...lol). I spent every phone conversation crying, complaining, begging for him to come home. I wouldn't attempt to hide any problems at home.

I like to look back sometimes because I see how far I've come. I still have to work on the no complaining thing but for the most part I'm OK. I just have to hide the tiredness in my voice better sometimes. Anyway, crying/whining/complaining won't change the moment, you're right. You can't control anything but your attitude.

I admire your strong attitude Melissa. You are such a blessing to your family. Proverbs 31 definately comes to mind.

Hugs,

Jess

PS. I say the same thing to DH every time he leaves also, it's similiar to yours.

J-Lynn said...

PS. That picture is just poetic, great job Austin